I am shedding the weight of the worthless years. I am shredding and throwing out what is left here in my home office. I need to use a big commercial shredder. I have loads of hard drives to destroy.
I am looking at the objects around me in a new light. I don't want anyone to have to go through these boxes of old bills and legal pads trying to apply meaning to my random stacks of paper when I am done. I want to shed and or shred all but what I have to have. The noise you'll hear is the crashing down of hollow years and a small shredder.
I am letting go of more than just doo-dads and papers. I am letting go of the organizations and side projects that have defined my adult life. The days of me completing my BA degree, working a full time day job, working a side job 4 nights a week, and volunteering in multiple capacities at multiple echelons of command are dead and gone. Work obligations and my immediate family duties are what will remain after the purge.
I never thought that I would be here at this place so soon. I thought I had a few more years left in me. All of the projects and plans left jagged and failed. I have wasted so much for so long.
I can't really say I saw this ending any differently. Random instances of all-to-brief and utterly irrelevant success define my last 13 years. I once thought that my experiences were shaping me into a leader or perhaps guiding me to fulfill my potential but... nope. Not at all. Nothing of the sort. As it turns out I was mistaken.
That double trash can investment is really paying off here lately.
